It might seem like you are in full control of your life as an adult when in reality you are not.
If you faced some trauma as a child, the experience can affect you even as an adult.
Throughout Life, You Can Go Through 'Microtraumas' You Might Not Even Know About
As children, we are often helpless and dependent. That puts us in a position to deal with trauma through dissociation.
In other words, the trauma remains unresolved and buried deep within us. Over time, we learn to live with it and even forget that we have it.
What we don't realize is that the trauma is very much alive as we will often react to certain situations in ways we might not expect.
That is why the smallest things might stress you out. Similarly, you might feel depressed and helpless over something you cannot substantiate.
Then you also might suffer the tendency to form relationships with the wrong people due to a desire for codependency. You might also get easily overwhelmed by situations that should not bother you.
Without you realizing it, your unhealthy response to things might become the only response you have.
Depression Comes From Incomplete Healing
If you are suffering from depression because of something you underwent as a child, know that you have not healed yet.
Repressed anger towards those who traumatized you, coupled with your inability to confront them causes a feeling of helplessness and hence depression.
As a child, you could not fully deal with the rage, betrayal, sadness, pain, shame, and loneliness you felt when you were traumatized.
But these feelings just don't go away because you ignore them. They stay within you and affect your life until you let go of them.
The Problem Is That Depression Takes On A Different Face
Don't think that a depressed person will walk around with their head hanging, looking gloomy and sad.
No. Depressed people can also be highly functional. They might not even know they are depressed.
Some people will always appear positive and cheerful, however depressed they are. Others might always seem gloomy or pensive, regardless of how happy they are.
So, don't always expect someone's face to tell you they are depressed.
Hidden Signs Of Depression
So, how do you know someone is depressed then? It's simple actually.
First, someone may be difficult to please, willing to inflict harm on themselves, lack motivation, feel guilty over 'nothing', pursue perfectionism, seem anxious, have low self-esteem, neglect their needs, and act in a narcissistic manner.
Depression is bad, regardless of the cause. It can push people off the edge and ruin their lives forever.
That is why no kind of depression should be downplayed.
The problem is that some people might not understand they are depressed, and the world might not know it either. So, if you know you suffered childhood trauma, watch out. You might suffer from depression regularly and not even know it.