Anthony Bourdain Discussed His Suicidal Thoughts In One Of His Final Interviews
Published in Jun 2018 / Updated in Aug 2021
On the surface, Anthony Bourdain had it all. Career-wise, he was on top of the world, and not just as a chef. His writing skills and documentaries made him a cultural icon.
He had a loving daughter and a much younger girlfriend. It also seems that he had a decent relationship with his ex-wife. But, Bourdain, a former addict, suffered from depression.
Eventually, he ended his life, while he was in France, working on his CNN show.
The world was in shock. Heartwarming messages from famous and regular people were pouring in from all over the world.
CNN statement says:
"It is with extraordinary sadness we can confirm the death of our friend and colleague, Anthony Bourdain."
"His love of great adventure, new friends, fine food and drink, and the remarkable stories of the world made him a unique storyteller. His talents never ceased to amaze us and we will miss him very much. Our thoughts and prayers are with his daughter and family at this incredibly difficult time."
The case of Bourdain is old as time. A person says they're happy, and they look like they are doing great. And that's exactly how Bourdain described himself and how others saw him, before taking his own life.
Bourdain's final interview
The celebrity chef was found unresponsive by his friend, Eric Ripert, in his hotel room.
The last time Tony, as friends called him, was in public, he was with Ripert. They were at the Michelin-starred Auberge de l'Ill in nearby Illhaeusern, where staff described both looking "pretty happy."
In his final interview with People in February, four months before his suicide, Bourdain described himself as "happy." He added that his main motivation was his 11-year-old daughter, Ariane.
He also said:
"I also do feel I have things to live for. There have been times, honestly, in my life that I figured, I've had a good run, why not just do this stupid thing, this selfish thing... jump off a cliff into water of indeterminate depth."
"In retrospect, I don't know that I would do that today, now that I'm a dad or reasonably happy."
He joked that he was "pretty much going to die in the saddle" when he talked about retirement.
Bourdain also said that he was:
"...happy in ways [he] didn't think [he] would ever be."
Asia Argento and Bourdain's open relationship
Bourdain had two marriages, and both ended in divorce. He met Asia Argento, an Italian actress while filming his show Parts Unkown.
Rose McGowan, Argento's friend, said that the couple had an open relationship, but they were both OK with it.
He had a young and attractive girlfriend, a great kid, and many famous friends. Even former POTUS Barack Obama was devastated.
Anderson Cooper teared up on-air when discussing the death of his dear friend. He said:
"The pain he must have been feeling, at least in that moment or in those moments, and the loneliness he must be feeling it's just terribly sad to think about."
Infamous colleague, Gordon Ramsay, also posted a heartbreaking tribute:
So, perhaps we're digging too deep. As some suggest, Bourdain was perhaps exhausted. And that's when depression kicked in and finally broke him.
Sources claim Bourdain was working too much
People sources claim that Bourdain was showing signs of "exhaustion".
According to their sources:
"His travel schedule was grueling, and he often seemed quite beat-up from it, as anyone would be ... He gave everything to his work and then had nothing, zero, left for himself afterward. He was always very, very tired, he pushed himself extremely hard. Most producers and crew don't work on every single episode; it's just too much, especially if you have a family. But that wasn't an option for Tony. We never had any sense of depression or mental illness. He was not especially cheerful or engaging, off-camera, but it was never rude or ill-intentioned. The guy was absolutely exhausted."
The same sources say he would go to his room to "isolate" once the shooting was over. He did his best while he was working, but that only took more of him.
Eventually, when he didn't show up for work, everyone knew something was very wrong.
On June 8, the 61-year-old famed chef and traveler, Anthony Bourdain, committed suicide. His death raised awareness, so if you're feeling down, especially in the current climate, don't hesitate. Call for help, ask, beg, talk, but do no harm to yourself.